Leo
32, HIV +, Black, Male, Gay, Has used crystal

I met him off Adam4Adam, on a computer service dating thing online, I met him online when I met him I've never tried crystal ever before in Florida, I've heard a lot of things about it that you can become very addicted if you try it. I went to his house it was kind of crazy because how he like, we smoked it, it was just different he took a light bulb and he removed the silver part off, put the crystal in and we smoked it, and then my first initial reaction when I smoked it, I was a little shocked I stood there still a little bit, and maybe like an hour later I feel like I ruled the world, I don’t know why…And then he did something that I've never ever tried in my whole entire life.

He fisted me, and I've never ever did that before…when he was fisting me I felt like it was just, like I was a woman. I felt like I was a woman, like I was masturbating myself like I've never ever done before… and that's like so rare for me. Cause I like, I had to touch myself. I didn't touch myself. It just felt, I don't know. Honestly I think I totally would do some more if I had enough money to buy it [crystal], but not like a regular basis. Only when I want to have sex with a big dick: not regular size, my size, 8 and a half – 9. But big dicks I have to use something, I can't take it. I'll just be wasting their time…I guess it's just the usage of crystal. I guess you don’t have no control. I don't know if people have control when they're really on it, but for me, my whole body just… maybe like 15 minutes later I felt that everything is just sexual. I mean, I took X before, but X is totally different, X is touchy-touchy.

But crystal just made like, god I could just do any of this sex all night…I've never had sex without a condom before when I was doing weed or when I was doing coke. I mean I just never… but with crystal it just made me feel totally different. I have never felt like that in my whole life. And I said I would never… like I told you I think it’s a sexual drug for me.